Existing in the middle
Being in the midst of transition the compulsion to act for the sake of acting is very real. The other side of the coin is to recoil from the world in fear and do nothing.
Through is time of transition I find myself discovering and asking myself what I truly value. What do I really want my life and world and existence to look like as I move forward in the next phase of my life.
If you haven’t been reading my blog, let me catch you up…
2 weeks ago I decided to close my business- a boutique gym, after 7 years and 2 months in business and 12 1/2 years in the industry. I decided I was done- like never going to train clients again done. I closed my business after years of the fitness industry taking care of my family because it simply stopped taking care of my family. I faced the music, and realized I no longer had enough savings to keep the thing afloat, regardless of how much I loved my clients and my team and being a business owner.
I didn’t have a solid plan for what’s next… just the knowledge that it was time to cut my losses and be done.
It’s funny how when you make a decision, are firm in that decision, things happen.
So as I walk my way through this transition, I am working at a coffee shop, pouring drinks, talking to people and thinking about what is next for me.
Here is what I have discovered so far:
being an hourly employee is not a long term strategy for me. Looking at the clock and looking forward to being off at a specific time is u comfortable for me. I like being able to work until I am done- whether it’s 10a or 10p. I love being in charge of my time.
I value the ability to create and solve problems in my day, work, and company. Though I thoroughly enjoy my current gig, I need to use my strategic and creative mind.
I love being the boss, not just my own boss, but I also need to be comfortable being the new girl and knowing nothing.
Travel and freedom of schedule is crucial for my existence and the feeding of my soul. So whatever I do next there must be a component of exploration and adventure.
I love to be well taken care of and able take care of others financially- experiencing my current financial constraint holds a lot of lessons that I am learning.
The hardest part about this transition is existing in the middle, listening to my spirit, the world around me and the universe to discover what my next best steps are.
I think at the end of the day that’s all any of us are doing is deciding and making the next best step, it could turn into a complete disaster or the greatest blessing.
Trusting myself and God or universe through this period is crucial.
Learning to listen and exist in the middle